Disgustingness

Well I'm finally home and what time is it? 9:51!! As usual. It's not fair! When did all this junk get mixed up with my life?! I probably shouldn't be talking, cuz lots of people are much busier than I am, but for me, being at least somewhat busy is huge so I have to complain about it. It's cheap! Today wasn't even my busy day of the week and I still got shafted! On Mondays I go to school, hurry home and go straight to scary piano lessons at 2, than straight from there to tennis which goes from 3 to 5 than flute lessons from 5:30-6:30, but now since I have this stupid prep class I go to that in provo from 5:30 to sometimes 9 instead. Then when I get home from that at like 9:30 I need to practice the piano(she requires 5 1/2 hrs a week and you get double credit if you practice the day of your lesson, so practicing on Mondays is essential). By then it's about 10:30 and I haven't eaten dinner or done my homework and my parents still want to have "family" night. It's not fair! I love tennis and other stuff that makes my life exciting, but I love sleeping and eating everyonce in a while too. Sometimes I like to write my schedule down on our calendar on our fridge just to keep track of everything... it's not a very beautiful fridge right now. The other day my flute teacher wanted to reschedule my lessons and there wasn't a single free spot left on my calendar for the next two weeks! I'm an idiot! The past couple of days I've been so exhausted, I've just come home and gone straight to bed without changing my clothes or brushing my teeth(or taking out my contacts...Ouch!). I don't know though maybe I'm exaggerating. I like to keep myself busy. Otherwise I'll think. When I think nothing works right(thanks a lot cerebellum!). Tomorrow is the region tennis tournament. We're seeded 2nd and we have a buy first round which means we're automatically going to state!Isn't that exciting? But I think I'll be really depressed when it's all over. My life will just...end. I was looking forward to doing pit orchestra this year so I could just transfer my busy-ness over to that, but thanks to me I'm not. It's really quite depressing. A little break might be good for me though. Ever since France last summer I haven't quite been able to catch up to everything.But I don't like being caught up. But I don't like having a neglected dog who needs a bath either.Well now I'm supposed to go start my homework and eat dinner. I don't want to. I really like writing down my complaints(I'm sure you haven't noticed). But I'm probably really starting to annoy someone if they've actually read this so I should stop. Hey! Conference weekend! I get the whole house to myself and the chocolate icecream! I'm pumped! Or I will be if I don't lose tomorrow... I'm not losing!!! I hate losing like nothingelse!! Hymph! G'night.

Don't read this! Your life will never be the same

Well I'm finally writing a blog again after so many months. Why? Don't ask me, but I'm writing this now so deal with it. Jk. I guess I'm just feeling like a sinner for not writing a blog. It's been so long. So here goes...if I can think of anything to write...Well let's see, I just watched Suspicion with Carey Grant and Joan Fontain. Ever seen it? It's not your typical Hitchcock movie. I wasn't all too impressed with the plot and nothing amazingly intense ever happened. But the music was funny. Hmm it's raining. No wait a second that's my dog walking. We need to cut her nails. She hates that. I don't like seeing her cry. Well... Oh! I'll give my thoughts on rain. I love rain! It reminds me Fred and Ted and the spring and smells, "sooo good." Rain makes everything seem more jubilant and fresh. It's only scary when your windshield wipers on your car don't work and you're driving on the freeway(my mom was driving, otherwise we would have died). It rained pretty hard today and yesterday and the day before that. What's the deal? It's September! How deceiving rain can be. Oh speaking of the rain last Thursday, it was so awesome! We had a match against Lone Peak(that's huge!!) in the rain. We won the first set 6-2 and lost the second 2-6 and were up 5-3 (!)in the third set before they called us in because of the rain. Talk about frustrating! But holy cow it was fun! You'd toss the ball to serve and it would swoop out of reach because of the wind. And then you could just slam things and they wouldn't go anywhere. I've never been so drenched in my life, well that is without standing underneath a gutter. I guess hair can be a problem in windy, rainy circumstances. Like in our match against Lone Peak. Man I wanted to eat my hair it was so annoying! Ofcourse the Lone Peak people had perfect hair the whole time. Hymph. But their calls weren't so perfect. Communists! Seriously there was this one time when my partner was serving (I'll give them some credit cuz she has a really fast and strong serve, but this call was just disgusting) and she serves the ball(it was pretty obviously in) and the LP girl returning the serve goes for it and totally misses and says,"nice serve." So I say,"beautiful serve Elena!" and start walking to the other side of the court. But then the other Lp girl who's call it is says,"It was out." ...Isn't that just terrible? I mean her partner went for it and said nice serve and than we were changing posisitions and then she says it's out? Ridiculous! If there's any doubt in your mind it's in, plus you can't wait that long and then make your call.Argh! They had too many of those for me. Maybe they were sincere honest calls, but I highly doubt it. I notice lots of the time Elena and I call balls in that are out just because we're not completely 100% sure. It was so frustrating! Every point really does make a difference. You only need 4 points to win a game and momentum has a huge role. I'm convinced we would've won the second set or finished the 3rd before they stopped us if they had just been more honest! Gosh I'm being pretty negative huh. I just feel like I need to complain to somebody. I don't have anyone to complain to anymore now that my bro is gone. I guess I haven't been so lively and excited this year have I? Well it's cuz I don't have anyone to annoy. I need that! So sorry whoever is reading this blog. You're a victim. Just accept it now. I guess the Lone Peak match was pretty fun too though. Last time we played em this girl kept hitting down the line shots on us, but this time we were ready. She didn't get a single down the line shot off us when we were up at the net. Ha! If you make bad calls you pay! And we noticed that she wasn't so good at returning down the line shots herself so we got revenge. Yes! Sorry if you read all this tennis junky stuff, but Man I love sports! You can be mean to people and blame it on competition. JK, no they're just so fun. You're actually doing something. I hate just sitting around and talking to people. I mean we all just say the same things over and over again, that is if we say anything at all. Seriously sometimes you can sit and watch a conversation with people you know and almost predict what the next person will say and who will say it. I prefer not to talk so much. I don't like people knowing every detail of my life. It's a lot easier tolerating other peoples sometimes monotonous conversations than feeling stupid saying the wrong things constantly. Plus it's fun to practice looking like you're actually listening sometimes. Sometimes. There you go. Look at that I'm analyzing things now. Rain, Tennis, Sports, Conversation. I should be a Junior again! Oh and speaking of tennis and conversation, I think who you're around really does effect what kind of language you use. When I play tennis I used to say,"do you have a ball," then it turned into," you gotta ball?" and now sometimes I'll find myself saying,"you gots a ball?" It's pretty sad. It's everywhere. My family has attendancy to talk very formally. It's kind of gross. One of my brothers hit it right when he said we all talk like the Hardy Boys. For example if you're somewhere and you want to ask someone if you can help, most people would say,"you need some help?" ect. But people in my family would say,"can I be of assistance?" It's pretty depressing. My sister in laws make fun of us all the time. I don't know if formal speaking is a good thing or bad thing. My sister did her thesis on that I think. Well I'm still writing and it's almost one. I just don't want to go to bed. I took a nap today. That was a problem. You're my hero if you read this blog this far. Why do I keep writing. Stop! Stop!! I think this blog counts as my journal cuz I haven't written in it forever. It's much easier to type. Oh word processing teachers are communists !I almost type faster than the teacher, yet I get a 5.5 out of 10 because I haven't improved by so many points in 5 days?! I don't have anywhere to improve from! Communists Pigs! Well I probably need to stop writing now. Maybe I will. No! I won't! Fine I'll go eat something and try to sleep. What should I eat? I really want A&W rootbeer right now. No maybe some corn on the cob. Dang! We don't have either of those! Well g'night.

France Junk

Well this'll probably be a pretty lame blog and somewhat self-centered(fred!) but if any of you actually care, and I'm sure you don't, some guy that went to France with me took 3,000 pictures and made a website for everybody. So if you're sick of me not knowing what to say about my trip(which was like a month and a half ago! Wow the summer goes fast!) you can look at these pictures and stuff. By the way I'll have you know I was part of the "fun group" from Utah.Just in case you were worried about that. Well anyways here's the site:
france.lifemontage.com

It has a bunch of pictures of a bunch of stuff that I'm sure you could probably care less about. But if you ever get extremly board feel free to look at these. Oh and I'll also have you know that I've seen all this stuff, but I'm not very good at talking if you haven't noticed so you'll probably like things better if you just don't ask.Unless you want to be thrown down by my annoying voice and lack of vocabulary.I also promise that no communists have seen this site yet. And I won't allow any of you to blackmail me with the few pictures I'm in. Well sorry you had to endure this blog. I just felt obligated to do something about the hugest chunk of my summer and this seemed to be the easiest way. I hope it doesn't bother you too much. Well have a tolerable day.

Fred Stinko:"Everybodies boyfriend?"

Fred Stinko

Who is he?!

We've narrowed it down.

1)He is known for saying,"Go Katrina!"

2) He is short and has brown hair

3) He's somewhat shy yet kind of arrogant at the same time

4) He may or may not speak French

5) He can be very flirtatious at times

6)He tries to play tennis

7) He'll be a senior at MV next year

8)Natalie knows him from a PE class

9) He wears regular shoes

10) An awkard situation is bound to occur

If you have any information regarding the true Fred Stinko, please notify The Last Popsicle Stand at 1-888-9000-TEMPERATURE-LIGHT-IS-ON.

Hello summer!

HI! I'm actually writing a blog...and I don't have too!!!! Wow! Well that's about all I have to say. Is anyone who actually has the guts to read my blogs feeling old. I sure am. And the summer is almost gone! It just barely started! Argh! Well hope everyone's having a nice summer, even though...it's almost gone(!). I'm so optimistic huh?

Avoidance

Hello! Look at me! I'm writing my blog on a Monday! What an amazing person I am! I've come so far! Sniff sniff. Sigh. Well, I'm writing this because I don't have anything else to do right now and I've already thought of a topic for once and I'm going to be in San Francisco this weekend, so let's get to the point. Last Saturday afternoon I was shopping at Costco with my mom. It was really crowded so I should have been on my guard, looking for people I knew, but I had just finished working at the library so my mind was elsewhere and my ability to focus was at its weekly low. We were just walking along the main isle by the food section when I heard this, "Hey Kathryn!" and I about jumped out of my pants cuz I wasn't ready for it. It was some people from my ward. So I grudgingly said hi to them and continued on my way, scolding myself for not being more alert. So we kept walking and I just started staring blankly straight ahead at some random girl a little ways in front of me because I was in shock that I had just seen someone in Orem whom I should only see in Provo(my ward is in Provo). But then I realized that I was staring at someone and then I thought, "wait a second! That girl's face looks familiar! Oh my gosh! That's ___( name edited out for protection of the avoider)!!"Some friend of my brother's from high school that I must avoid at all costs( I avoid everyone at all costs but especially my brother's friends because they're old and scary and intimidating and talk too much). So I immediately veered off into the frozen foods section and ran for my life. I look back on it now and I think it was kind of mean...but I really don't care...but ....well it was mean. I'm pretty sure she saw me cuz I was staring blankly at her for a couple of seconds in shock, but... well it's over now and I saved my life probably by avoiding her. So why in the world do I avoid people? I seriously always avoid anyone that I see at stores and stuff whether they're from school, work, church or even if they're like my best friends. What's wrong with me? I'm so scared of people!! Well I guess you could just end this blog by saying....um... Avoidance is necessary. It saves us from awkward situations... Sure...but it also makes us feel a little guilty...but oh well I'd rather feel guilty then be scared to death by seeing someone I know somewhere. I guess I'm just weird like that.

Tubes of Toothpaste

Happy mother's day! Mom's are really amazing! It's too bad we only celebrate mother's day once a year, because mom's deserve a lot more credit more often than we give them. I spoke in church today (or at least tried to speak...I talk extremly fast when I'm nervous and I sounded like a bumble bee) about the influence of mothers, so for once I actually had to make myself think about the importance of mothers. I got blown away by how awesome they are and how much they do for us. I'm so ignorant and self-centered that I never realized just how great they are. All that stuff you hear about the roll of mother being the greatest and divinest calling...soo true! Sometimes I find myself being a little selfish and not so appreciative of my mom. What an idiot I am. My mom has raised eight great kids, no wait seven great kids, (the last one of them isn't so great) I think she probably knows what she's doing. Well...um... now I've lost my bus(why do we always say train) of thought... oh!...Um... I read this saying in church that I'm not so sure was appropriate for sacrament meeting, you can tell me what you think, but I liked it so I said it anyway,"A mother's patience is like a tube of toothpaste. It never quite runs out."It's a good thing my mom's patient otherwise I'd never get up in the mornings...um.. (why did I say that?)... Uh... so yeah mother's are amazing.... Well, I was going to say somethingelse but I got too carried away thinking about my own mom and I forgot it so... I guess I'll just end with that...Mothers are amazing!

Pin-striped Suits

I don't really want to write this blog because it's almost summer and it's starting, did I say starting? Ending to get on my nerves. So today I will answer that all too famous question of,"How do you feel about pin-stripped suits?"
Now I don't want to offend any one because I know this can be a very sensitive topic for some people, but me? I feel that pin-striped suits are, well, pin-striped and very sharp looking. Wether I perfer them to plain suits? I'd probably say yes I like them better than plain suits, but tuxs are probably better than both because they're so formal. I also think pin-striped suits go well with alligator shoes. Why? Because... well maybe I like that zoot-suit sort of looking thing. Yes pin-striped suits are amazing.

My Therapy

Two weeks ago I mowed the lawn for the first time in my life (I know I'm kind of old, but this is the first time in my life I haven't had any brothers to mow the lawn for me. I'm stepping it up). It was pretty intense. My front yard is almost impossible to mow because there's all these weird hills and you actually need muscles. By the way I don't have any muscles .So I didn't do the greatest job, but it was very full-filling. Then I mowed the lawn again yesterday and the 8ft tall part of the lawn in my backyard where my dog lives(that was really hard because the lawn mower didn't like the tall grass so I had to go really slow and keep restarting it. My right arm has never been more soar in my life). Anyways so yes, I'll admit that I actually like mowing the lawn. When my brother left on his mission, I was trying to prepare myself for change. Any time anyone would ask me what was going to be different in my life, I'd tell them that I would be mowing the lawn. I thought if I could just focus on that I wouldn't get carried away with all the missionary almost leaving and youngest child worries. Well I think it worked. My brothers gone. I'm mowing the lawn. I think I'm doing a pretty good job. Yep so if you every need any special therapy for being an only child, try mowing the lawn. It works.

UGH

I pretty much feel disgusting right now so I'll analyze feeling sick. Feeling sick does not feel good. Nothing is satisfying and you just can't do anything. The worst part of being sick is when people start feeling sorry for you. When people feel sorry for you, you feel like a wimp(you pretty much are a wimp when you're sick though) and I hate being wimpy. You also feel bad because you feel like you're ruining everyone else's day(sorry you had to see me almost throw up Natalie). Anyways this is a pretty gross blog. I'm sorry you read this if you did. At least I tried to analyize something. Being sick is terrible.

Too Old for Easter

Happy Easter!
The Easter bunny forgot to come to my house today. I kind of knew he wasn't coming, but my 29 year old sister didn't. She woke up this morning and went upstairs to look for her Easter basket and there was no basket to be found. She was a little confused because," he had always come before," but just not this year. The Easter bunny was very well supplied with Easter candy at my house, so why didn't he come?
Well ya see the Easter bunny (we'll call him the EB) can get very busy at times. There were so many other houses to go to that for some reason he thought it would be okay to just skip mine.
Since my brother left on his mission, there's only been me to supply..oh and my big sister. The EB thought we were too old to still be thinking of him. Maybe the Easter bunny was just planning on coming later in the day(he was...we've been waiting for my brother and his wife to come and have dinner and Easter with us, but that's no excuse for not coming this morning...somehow...this is a blog remember). Well the true reason the Easter bunny didn't come to my house and fooled my sister is the communists! They're trying to take over Easter now! But I don't care! Just like they tried to frame me at the library and poison my food at Thanksgiving! I shall...We shall overcome! They must be stopped! I hope all of you guys got visited by the Easter bunny this year and the communists didn't get to you first. Anyways, this whole Easter thing has made me feel old. My Birthday is in a couple of days, and the other day I got a letter in the mail about retirement. I have 57$ in my retirement account for work! I'm OLD! Well anyways, hope ya'll had a good Easter.

"She Had a Strange Resemblence to a Cat Named Frankenstein"

"It's another Saturday night," and I'm enjoying myself thoroughly. Yet what is there to enjoy? I'm just sitting here by myself. It probably sounds really weird, but I love being alone most of the time. I relish in solitude. I'm not just trying to get attention,I'm dead serious. There's just some weird thing in me that enjoys my own company. Maybe this is why I talk to myself so much. But anyways, so yeah I love being isolated from other people. Often times I'll find myself making concious efforts to try and isolate myself. I'll be at a store and see someone I know, even one of my good friends and instead of walking over to them and saying, "hi!" like most other people would, I'll yell"Hide!"Because "I can't let them see me and ruin my shopping experience!" Sometimes it's hard to isolate myself because other people start thinking I'm a lone-er and try making projects out of me. By the way I don't like being a project. Anyways I love going outside into my back yard and just sitting there listening. I enjoy silence. I also love driving in the car by myself and singing to the radio when no one can hear me. Being alone is so unstressful. You don't have to worry about anyone except yourself and you can do whatever you want. I wonder why I like being by myself? Maybe it's peaceful and I need peace.Maybe I'm so shy, the only person who can be in my true comfort zone is myself. Maybe I'm in love with myself (jk). Maybe I can't stand anyone(not true). Maybe I'm just too good for anyone else(not true again). Maybe I just... like being by myself. Well anyways the only good reason I can come up with is that I'm a nationalist (I can't call myself a communist). Communism makes everyone interact and share. I hate sharing and interacting so I'm left with myself as a nationalist. And I love it.
Oh Ps I hope I'm not sounding mean or something... I'm just analyzing something I've always felt my whole life. Anyone else enjoy being by themselves?

The Piano

The other day I found a tape of a recording of me playing the piano a while ago. I was impressed with some of the songs I used to be able to play and now I can't :) But ofcourse I bet I play songs now that I wouldn't have been able to learn then. Anyways, I'm not the greatest at the piano, but I just love playing it! So...um...well...Oh! So you ask why I love playing the piano? There are many reasons for this. First and foremost, I'm named after someone who plays the piano. My mom always used to love to open her basement window and listen to the girl next door playing the piano. Well that girl's name was Kathryn and so is mine(I guess it's a good thing I wasn't named Rebecca huh? Anybody else almost named Rebbecca? Oh and that also goes to show just how much your name really can do for you. If you want to motivate your kids to do something you'd like them to and enjoy it, name them after someone who did that thing and they'll feel obligated to like it). So yeah one reason I like playing the piano is it's sort of my way of living up to my name. Another reason I love playing the piano is it relieves stress. It's so nice when I'm having a bad day to just come home and sit at the piano and play whatever I want. It's great. I think I'd be living in some insane asylum if it weren't for the piano. Another more selfish reason for my liking the piano is that... well being the youngest of a competitive family of 8, everyone is always better than me at everything because they're older and not to mention a foot or two taller. Now ofcourse I always want to be better than other people at stuff if you haven't noticed, so this drives me crazy .Playing the piano is my secrert way of revenge. Everyone in my family plays the piano, but this time I'm better than all of them for once. It sounds stupid, but really it's actually very full-filling. Yeah so I guess the piano nurtures my pride :) which I have a lot of and you can probably tell that from just reading this. Okay well, uh the last reason I'm going to mention for liking the piano is it gets me out of stuff like doing the dishes. However, I guess it also get's me into stuff like accompanying the ward choir etc. which is scary, but secretly I like that too.
Yep so I like playing the piano. It's one of the few things in life that I'll actually admit to always enjoy doing no matter what.

Combating Questions

There's this question some girl keeps bothering me with that I don't want to answer, or else I'll try to answer it and answer in the way she doesn't want me to so she keeps bugging me. It's kind of frustrating and annoying. I can't think of anything to do about it, so today I have been seeking out some advice on how to avoid answering questions. From the few people I talked to, here's some stuff we came up with. First you can just try changing the subject . For example:
-Bob: So Joe, you're going to the popsicle stand with me tonight right?
-Joe(who has no intention of going to the popsicle stand): Wow look at that pin-stripped suit over there! Don't you just love pin-stripped suits Bob?
Various ways of changing the subject may include, commenting on the weather, suddenly noticing something "different" in your surroundings, or just starting up a crazy new conversation on any random thing, which sometimes takes focus. Another way to combat questions is to re-direct the question at the questioner. We all know that everyone's favorite topic of conversation is themselves. The movie Catch Me If You Can has many good examples of using this tactic effectively (Ps it would be a perfect movie without Leonardo De Caprio. I can't stand any of the movies he's in! Terrible acting, terrible looks and terribly annoying! Sorry I sound mean, but it's just that he's probably my least favorite actor ever and I had to say something). People can become so anxious to talk about themselves that they'll forget what they were asking you.
Excessive sneezing and coughing or laughing can often throw off questions and in dire circumstances running away is an option. Oh and you can always fall back on your constitutional rights. Anyways there are many more ways of avoiding conversations that I won't get into right now(Lol I'm avoiding a conversation!), but altogether the best way I've found to avoiding questions is to assume the other person is a communist(they probably are) . This way you won't feel obligated in any way to talk to them or answer their questions. It works . I'm serious. Well yep so why we should avoid conversations, I never elaborated on, but the best ways to avoid them are now clearer to you I hope.

Sister Susy Sitting on a Sistle

My two nieces and nephew have been visting this week. On Monday their parents came and left them here while they went on some honey moon thing or something. It's been pretty exciting. The two girls are really into being doctors, so my poor old dog has had to tolerate being their favorite patient. My nephew is at the stage where if you say,"I'll time you," he'll do anything. Today we made play-dough and "wrote letters" to my brother in the MTC. Anyways it's been fun. However, I think it's a really good thing I'm the youngest in my family. I probably wouldn't survive too well with little siblings. I'm so self-indulgent, I just wouldn't last. I even find myself now with the grand kids, sneaking around the house trying to hide candy or selfishly putting chocolate syrup into my milk when I think no one's looking. I'd be so stuck on myself like I am now that I'd never have any time for little brothers or sisters and I'd never be able to share my stuff. I also don't think I have the mental capability for younger siblings .My closest brother and I have noticed that we have a hard time focusing when little babies cry because we never grew up with crying babies. I look at my little nephew with his two younger sisters, and he can put up with anything. It's amazing! Being an older sibiling also requires a little responsibility which I have absolutely nothing of. I would make a horrible big sister. But then again, sometimes I wish I had a little brother or something. When you're the youngest you don't have any sidekicks or people to boss around, tease, or train. Then when everyone leaves you get stuck at home, all lonely with your parents. It would be so nice if I could always have someone to fall back on and brush my parents off onto. Not to mention for once I'd be able to beat someone in one of those,"look what I can do arguments." ... Um...Yeah well anyways I can't really think of any conclusions right now because I'm kind of undecided as to whether I'd like being and older or younger sister better, so I'll just say being the youngest is the best because you can almost always get what you want...if you know what you want that is.

The Forgotten Tree

I look over to the left of this computer I'm typing on and see a medium sized, chunky old Christmas tree that can't even stand up by itself. Suddenly a thought strikes me. What in the world is that Christmas tree doing still up in March?! Who in their right mind leaves Christmas decorations out that long?! What's this world coming too?! But now, after deeper contemplation I've changed my mind. WHY NOT?! Why am I feeling so idiotic because my family has neglected to take down one little piece of Christmas cheer? Why do I laugh when people still have their Christmas lights out? Why do we even put our Christmas stuff away in the first place?(Why am I writing this blog?!!!) Christmas is so wonderful. Everyone's happy and all smells nice. Lights flash and make you feel warm in the cold weather. Nobody is complaining about school, instead they're singing jolly Christmas carols. Food is everywhere, but you're never hungry because you're always full of it. Little kids are pelting each other with snowballs. Life can't get any better. So if Christmas is so great, what's wrong with keeping a reminder of it up longer. Why not just have those reminders up all year? What is the world coming to? Now I look over at the crummy old Christmas tree next to the computer and think," what a gorgeous Christmas tree. You go tree! Show the world how elegant and beautiful you are! Even if it is March."

Eating Your Vegetables

Well I can't think of anything to write about, but I'm determined to write this blog. So maybe I'll write about determination :) What is determination? Determination is what brings us together to day. Ahh! Gosh! I can't remember the rest and I've only seen that movie once so sorry. Anyway so determination is pretty important. Determination is writing a blog every week for some unknown reason(!). Determination is carrying something out to it's greatest extent. Determination is eating the smelly purple sour crout that may or may not have hair or bugs in it. Determination is getting out of bed in the morning. Determination is standing up for something you believe in. Determination is going against the odds. Determination is fighting on no matter what. Determination is my life time goal. (?)Determination is domination. Determination is huge. Without it there would be no use in putting any effort in all we do. Everyone would just sit back and watch everyone else sitting back and watching. Determination can change everything. You never know what could have happen if you were more determined that time you gave up. Today at Sunday dinner I was determined to eat my vegetables. If I wasn't determined to eat them, I don't think they ever would have been eaten. (?)You know the reason I think the MV girls basketball team lost in the State Championship a while ago wasn't just because Michelle Harrison fouled out early because of bad calls,(!) but because the other team was more determined to win. Determination makes a difference. Determination allows us to "reach the unreachable star," and, "dream the impossible dream." I firmly believe that if we are determined in every aspect of our lives, we can accomplish the inconceivable.

Beef vs. Cheese an Analysis

Right now I'm eating a bean and cheese burito. My family has one of those huge beef/bean and bean/cheese combo bags from costco and I just happened to reach in and take out a bean and cheese burito. However, I kind of wish that I had grabbed a beef and bean. I'm a very picky eater. Being the youngest of a big family, it seems that the role of picky eater is my job(although don't get me wrong, I have many other more logical reasons for being a picker eater that I won't go into for your benefit). Anyways, so I used to really enjoy bean and cheese buritos and refuse to eat beef and beans because they were "gross" even though I had never tried them before. But then one day one of my brothers secretly gave me a beef and bean and didn't tell me what it was. I ate it and I truly enjoyed it (as much as you can enjoy buritos...I really don't like them all that much but I can't think of anything else to write about). Ofcourse when I found out it was a beef and bean my opinion immediately changed, but I never really got over that actually delicious beef and bean burito. So gradually( so that no one would notice and tear down my credibility that I really don't have in food tastes) I started eating beef and bean buritos and now I'll admit that I like them better than bean and cheese. So you know we can never really trust our first instincts about food until we actually try it (wow this sounds really strange coming from me...I get teased and made fun of all the time for the things I don't eat). Yeah so don't think before you eat...eat then think (wait a minute who actually thinks about what they're eating?..Oh never mind I do).

I'm the Biggest Competition

The other day at one of my flute group lessons, we were all performing for and critiquing each other on the pieces we're all playing for flute federation (that's this weird kind of messed up competition thingy up in Salt Lake that I'm not excited about). Anyway, one of the problems I had with my performance was that I appeared to be a little nervous. So my flute teacher says to all of us, "there is no one to be afraid of. You're biggest competition is yourself." These words really rang strong to me. It's so true! It's not really how good you did compared to other people, but how good you felt you did compared to how good you thought you could have done. With this in mind it's much easier to control nerves and focus. If you truly think about it, the only person you're competing with is yourself. I've always told myself this when I'm playing sports and I've always been able to focus because of it, but I've never really thought of applying it to nerves in general. Whenever you're not feeling good enough or are nervous about something, all you have to do is tell yourself,"I'm gonna show myself how good I am and have fun," and you'll survive.
PS this was cheesy, but at least I'm starting to write shorter blogs.

Nessun Dorma

I just watched the olympic games opening and it was pretty intense. Everything was pretty amazing, although some of the more modern types of dance thingys sort of confused me. I was pretty excited at the end when some guy sang "Nessun Droma" by Puccini which is an opera song I actually know(since when do I know opera songs? Well...um I guess since piano lessons). Anyways its a very beautiful song up until the ending which is just awful! It does this sequential kind of thing and you think,"oh my gosh! This song is actually going to go somewhere else! And I thought it couldn't get any better!" But then to your dismay it just ends right there. It's terrible! Way too deciving! I just can't stand it! So this has brought me to the conclusion that endings are huge. You can have a wonderful piece of music, but without a good ending it's nothing.
Ps speaking of messed up ednings, I just can't get over Alfred Hitchcock's (who died on my birthday by the way) Birds ending! It just ends! I don't understand! Let me know if you do.