A Nostalgic Blog

Well the other day my family held our traditional Christmas Party at my cousin's house. Like every year, it was really boring, but this year I noticed that it was exceptionally boring and I couldn't figure out why. Then I realized what it was. My fiancee was missing. Usually at boring family parties like these we'd hold hands together on a love seat and dreamily say to everyone,"We have an announcement to make." But he's gone now. This will be my first Christmas without him. I think I've been getting along pretty well since he left, but now that Christmas time is coming around, he's supposed to be here...but he's not. I think it's finally starting to hit me. Today I was out shoveling snow by myself. I was worried for some reason that I was going to get hit in the face with a snow ball, but it never happened. Today was the first day in my life that I've shoveled snow without a snow ball fight breaking out. Last year we started playing baseball in the snow. I wasn't very good at making the broom(bat) contact the snowball. When I finally did though the pitcher had "mistakenly" thrown two snowballs to me. One hit my broom and the other hit me smack in the face. Sigh life's getting to be depressing without my fiancee around. It's like watching a Shakespearean play without the comedy relief. But nevertheless the play must go on. I probably miss my fiancee a ton I guess, I just try not to think too much about it. My cousin just returned from his mission on Friday so I'm probably just jealous. Anyway as long as I don't ruin Christmas for myself. I just need to remember that we're still engaged.